{"id":48117,"date":"2021-10-04T12:29:41","date_gmt":"2021-10-04T12:29:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/?p=48117"},"modified":"2022-01-10T16:01:34","modified_gmt":"2022-01-10T16:01:34","slug":"fragmente-gabi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/archives\/48117","title":{"rendered":"Cele dou\u0103 pubert\u0103\u021bi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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FRAGMENTE:
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Cele dou\u0103 pubert\u0103\u021bi<\/b><\/h2>\n

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colaj:\u00a0Gabriel Gherman
\ntext: Andrada L\u0103utaru
\nfotografii: Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/h6>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][uncode_share layout=”multiple” no_back=”yes” title=”SHARE”][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_column_text]\u201e<\/span>Sim\u021beam c\u0103 dac\u0103 nu bag acul \u0103la \u00een mine m\u0103 omor<\/span>\u201d, poveste\u0219te Gabriel Gherman, 19 ani, despre ziua \u00een care \u0219i-a f\u0103cut prima injec\u021bie cu testosteron. <\/span>Era \u00eentr-o mar\u021bi, spre sear\u0103, c\u00e2nd o prieten\u0103 i-a b\u0103gat acul \u00een fes\u0103. Au filmat momentul. <\/span>\u201eAm r\u0103mas prost. A fost foarte rapid\u0103.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0218i azi, la un an dup\u0103, se uit\u0103 cu entuziasm la imaginile de atunci. A fost seara \u00een care a \u00eenceput s\u0103 devin\u0103 cine era. Gabriel, nu Gabriela.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201ePentru mine, faptul c\u0103 trebuia s\u0103 a\u0219tept v\u00e2rsta de 18 ani ca s\u0103 fac ce vreau s\u0103 fac era ca \u0219i cum ai pune foc peste benzin\u0103 \u0219i ai a\u0219tepta s\u0103 se sting\u0103.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen copil\u0103rie, c\u00e2nd mergea cu p\u0103rin\u021bii la c\u00e2te o nunt\u0103, trebuia s\u0103 poarte rochie. Se uita cu jind la b\u0103rba\u021bii \u00een costum \u0219i sim\u021bea cum rochia se transform\u0103 \u00eentr-un corset din care voia s\u0103 evadeze. \u201eMai bine puneai fier \u00eencins pe mine trei ore dec\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 bagi \u00een rochie.\u201d<\/p>\n

Toate senza\u021biile de sufocare se a\u0219terneau peste pubertatea care venea \u0219i ea cu greu: menstrua\u021bie, critici legate de num\u0103rul kilogramelor, disforie. Se sim\u021bea ca o epav\u0103 emo\u021bional\u0103.<\/p>\n

Prin clasa a VII-a, s-a \u00eendr\u0103gostit pentru prima dat\u0103 de o tip\u0103. \u201eMi-am dat seama c\u0103 eu lesbian\u0103 nu pot fi, e mai mult de at\u00e2t.\u201d A \u00eenceput s\u0103 caute informa\u021bii pentru a \u00een\u021belege cine este. Dar acum \u0219ase ani nu prea g\u0103sea nimic despre a te sim\u021bi prizonier \u00eentr-un gen care nu e al t\u0103u. A dat peste un site: suntlesbiana.ro.<\/span> \u201eM\u0103 sim\u021beam gre\u0219it. Era \u0219i hate-ul din discursul media.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Nu cuno\u0219tea al\u021bi termeni pentru ce sim\u021bea \u00een interior. C\u0103uta \u00een continuare. Persoana \u0219i cuvintele care s-o defineasc\u0103. Le-a g\u0103sit c\u00e2nd a dat, pe Google, peste termenul<\/span> trans<\/span><\/i>.<\/span><\/p>\n

Cel mai mult i-a lipsit respectul celor din jur. \u201eS\u0103 fie OK c\u0103 sunt trans.\u201d <\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row unlock_row_content=”yes” row_height_percent=”100″ back_image=”48080″ back_attachment=”fixed” back_position=”center center” overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”25″ position_vertical=”middle” align_horizontal=”align_center” override_padding=”yes” column_padding=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]\u00cen liceu, a stat \u00eentr-un c\u0103min de fete din Tulcea. La un moment dat, tat\u0103l unei colege i-a f\u0103cut reclama\u021bie fiindc\u0103 se d\u0103 cu parfum de b\u0103ie\u021bi. \u201eM-a terminat psihic locul \u0103la. Faptul c\u0103 se luau de mine a\u0219a <\/span>random<\/span><\/i>. O h\u0103h\u0103ial\u0103. Un mi\u0219to. <\/span>Fata-b\u0103iat.<\/span><\/i>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Foarte mul\u021bi ani a jucat o realitate fals\u0103. Sim\u021bea c\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219te \u00eentr-o cu\u0219c\u0103 din care nu i se d\u0103dea voie s\u0103 ias\u0103. De partea cealalt\u0103 a ei se lovea de bullying. Oameni necunoscu\u021bi de pe strad\u0103 \u00eel \u00eentrebau dac\u0103 e b\u0103iat sau fat\u0103. <\/span>\u00cen timp ce lumea din jur se comporta ca \u0219i cum ar ur\u00ee cine voia Gabi s\u0103 fie, el detesta cine trebuia s\u0103 fie.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Ura s\u0103 se pieptene, de pild\u0103. O prim\u0103 eliberare a fost c\u00e2nd \u0219i-a tuns p\u0103rul. A f\u0103cut-o de\u00a0 \u00cenviere. \u201eAm ie\u0219it pe biciclet\u0103 din curtea unde m-am tuns \u0219i era s\u0103 intru \u00een ceva; eram doar cu m\u00e2na \u00een p\u0103r.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Au mai fost mici escapade, \u00een momentele \u00een care era singur acas\u0103. <\/span>C\u00e2nd p\u0103rin\u021bii erau afar\u0103, avea tabieturile lui interioare. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>M\u0103 d\u0103deam cu parfumul lui taic\u0103-miu, intram la el \u00een dulap.<\/span>\u201d <\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00centr-o astfel de zi, din vara lui 2016, c\u00e2nd p\u0103rin\u021bii lui s-au \u00eentors de la plaj\u0103 a vorbit cu mama lui despre cine este. A luat-o de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i s-au a\u0219ezat pe o canapea. \u00cen aer, pielea \u0219i hainele lui emanau parfumul lui taic\u0103-su. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Sunt trans<\/span>\u201d, i-a spus. <\/span>\u00a0<\/span>\u201e<\/span>M-a luat \u00een bra\u021be, a spus c\u0103 m\u0103 accept\u0103 pentru c\u0103 sunt copilul ei.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

De atunci a mai avut de a\u0219teptat doi ani. <\/span>Cu prima injec\u021bie de testosteron a \u00eenceput s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 \u0219i a doua pubertate. Vocea i s-a schimbat prima. A venit cu inflexiuni. Rostea cuvinte cu <\/span>ups and downs<\/span><\/i>, la fel ca realit\u0103\u021bile pe care le tr\u0103ia. Au urmat \u0219i alte schimb\u0103ri. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>P\u0103r. Cre\u0219te p\u0103r peste tot. Practic, am tr\u0103it o pubertate masculin\u0103 la v\u00e2rsta de 18 ani.<\/span>\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Acum, cel mai mult \u00eei plac firele din b\u0103rbie. C\u00e2nd \u00ee\u0219i trece degetele prin ele \u0219tie c\u0103 este cine este. <\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″][vc_column width=”1\/1″][vc_single_image media=”48076″ media_lightbox=”yes” media_width_percent=”100″ alignment=”center” lbox_caption=”yes” lbox_connected=”yes”][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]\u00cen ultimele luni a \u00eenceput s\u0103-\u0219i injecteze testosteron singur. Cu fiecare mililitru pe care \u0219i-l bag\u0103 \u00een corp, tr\u0103ie\u0219te. Iar a\u0219teptarea continu\u0103. \u201eAbia a\u0219tept s\u0103 m\u0103 duc la plaj\u0103 dup\u0103 ce \u00eemi fac opera\u021bia \u00een partea de sus.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

P\u00e2n\u0103 atunci \u00ee\u0219i acoper\u0103 pieptul cu un binder. Deasupra pune de obicei tricouri \u0219i hanorace cu mesaje \u0219i desene, <\/span>ceva ce s\u0103-\u021bi sar\u0103 \u00een ochi.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

\u201eS\u0103 fii trans vine cu traume la pachet. Eu \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it am ajuns s\u0103 fiu ok cu mine. De ce trebuie s\u0103 fiu suficient pentru cineva, nu doar pentru mine?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen Bucure\u0219ti, unde e student la Facultatea de Geografie \u0219i lucreaz\u0103 la Asocia\u021bia Accept, ca s\u0103 ajute la r\u00e2ndul lui adolescen\u021bi trangender spune c\u0103 via\u021ba a devenit mai u\u0219oar\u0103. Un nou \u00eenceput. De la zero spre bine. Dar acas\u0103, la Tulcea, r\u0103m\u00e2ne Dun\u0103rea \u00een care sare \u00eembr\u0103cat de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd are ocazia.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Articol ap\u0103rut \u00een revista DoR#44<\/a><\/p>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-gyho” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][vc_column_text]\u201cFragmente\u201d \u00eembin\u0103 fotografia, colajul\u00a0\u0219i\u00a0interviul pentru a documenta pove\u0219tile personale ale unor oameni care au trecut prin experien\u021be traumatice.<\/p>\n

\u00cen proiect, persoanele intervievate \u0219i fotografiate realizeaz\u0103 un colaj\u00a0\u00een care\u00a0\u00ee\u0219i\u00a0schi\u021beaz\u0103 vizual\u00a0identitatea reconstruit\u0103 dup\u0103 traum\u0103.<\/p>\n

concept \u0219i realizare de Andrada L\u0103utaru \/ Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/p>\n

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