{"id":48113,"date":"2021-10-04T12:25:16","date_gmt":"2021-10-04T12:25:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/?p=48113"},"modified":"2022-01-10T16:02:39","modified_gmt":"2022-01-10T16:02:39","slug":"fragmente-raluca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/archives\/48113","title":{"rendered":"Corpul este casa noastr\u0103"},"content":{"rendered":"

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FRAGMENTE:
\nRALUCA<\/h1>\n

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\u201eCorpul este casa noastr\u0103<\/b>\u201d<\/b><\/h2>\n

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colaj:\u00a0Raluca C\u0103\u0219aru
\ntext: Andrada L\u0103utaru
\nfotografii: Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/h6>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][uncode_share layout=”multiple” no_back=”yes” title=”SHARE”][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_column_text]La miezul nop\u021bii dintre ani, de pe patul alb de spital, Raluca putea scrie pe cear\u0219af orice nara\u021biune \u00ee\u0219i dorea pentru viitor. Era speriat\u0103, dar \u0219tia c\u0103 singura ei \u0219ans\u0103 era s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 pozitiv\u0103.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

La insisten\u021bele colegei de salon, a m\u00e2ncat c\u00e2teva boabe de struguri. Tradi\u021bia de a m\u00e2nca struguri de Revelion, \u021binut\u0103 nefestiv, \u00een pijamale, a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat-o lec\u021bia de a face ce-\u021bi aduce fericire, indiferent \u00een ce situa\u021bie e\u0219ti. Nu \u0219i-a pus nicio dorin\u021b\u0103, a\u0219a cum prevede ritualul m\u00e2ncatului de struguri c\u00e2nd se schimb\u0103 anul. S-a jucat mai degrab\u0103 cu un g\u00e2nd \u0219i-un sentiment: <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Voiam ca starea aia de bucurie s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Cele dou\u0103 femei au trecut \u00een 2018 \u00eempreun\u0103. \u00cemp\u0103r\u021beau acela\u0219i diagnostic. Colegei toat\u0103 lumea \u00eei spunea c\u0103 are \u201elimfom\u201d. Nimeni nu pronun\u021ba cuv\u00e2ntul <\/span>cancer<\/span><\/i>.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Raluca primise diagnosticul pe 6 decembrie 2017, de Mo\u0219 Nicolae. Avea 33 de ani \u0219i a fost internat\u0103 pentru o biopsie. A aflat c\u0103 are limfom non Hodgkin, un tip de cancer al sistemului limfatic. Era \u00eentr-un stadiu incipient, 2B. Asta \u00eensemna c\u0103 \u00een ea cre\u0219tea o tumoare sferic\u0103, de aproape 8 cm. Deasupra inimii. \u00cei sufoca pl\u0103m\u00e2nul \u0219i tu\u0219ea. A\u0219a a ajuns la medic. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Eram perfect\u0103, nu aveam nimic, doar un cancer.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd s-a internat prima dat\u0103, chiar \u00eenainte de Anul Nou, seara a fost agita\u021bie pe sec\u021bie.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>Aveam impresia c\u0103 murise cineva. Eu \u00eemi \u00eencep chimioterapia cu cineva murind aici.<\/span>\u201d<\/span> N-a aflat niciodat\u0103 ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat de fapt. Din decembrie p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een aprilie au urmat \u0219ase cure de chimioterapie. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>\u00cen momentul \u00een care \u021bi se pune fizic substan\u021ba \u00een corp nu sim\u021bi, nu ustur\u0103, nu nimic<\/span>\u201d<\/span>, descrie Raluca. Ajuns\u0103 \u00een interior, substan\u021ba f\u0103cea cancerul s\u0103 moar\u0103 \u0219i pe ea s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dup\u0103 prima chimioterapie nu a sim\u021bit nimic diferit. S-a g\u00e2ndit: <\/span>hai, c\u0103 poate nu e chiar ca \u00een filme<\/span><\/i>. P\u00e2n\u0103 atunci, \u00een universul ei, cancerul \u0219i chimioterapia erau realit\u0103\u021bi pe care le tr\u0103ise doar prin intermediul unui ecran.<\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row unlock_row_content=”yes” row_height_percent=”100″ back_image=”48082″ back_attachment=”fixed” back_position=”center center” overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”25″ position_vertical=”middle” align_horizontal=”align_center” override_padding=”yes” column_padding=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]Dup\u0103 a doua tur\u0103, a \u00eenceput s\u0103 o doar\u0103 foarte tare pielea capului, <\/span>\u201e<\/span>ca atunci c\u00e2nd ai p\u0103rul prea str\u00e2ns \u00een coad\u0103<\/span>\u201d<\/span>. De fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u00eel atingea, podul palmei i se umplea cu \u0219uvi\u021bele care c\u0103deau. Filmul ie\u0219ise din ecran. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>La ochiul st\u00e2ng mai aveam dou\u0103 gene. Le num\u0103ram, erau pe inventar.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Dup\u0103 a treia \u0219edin\u021b\u0103 de chimioterapie se sim\u021bea extrem de obosit\u0103. Drumul din pat p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie, \u00eentr-o garsonier\u0103, \u00eel tr\u0103ia ca pe un maraton. Apoi au venit st\u0103rile de r\u0103u. Fiecare procedur\u0103 medical\u0103 prin care trebuia s\u0103 treac\u0103 o izbea de universul durerii. Pielea p\u0103rea c\u0103 se baricadeaz\u0103 \u00een ea \u00eens\u0103\u0219i, venele se ascundeau din fa\u021ba acelor, iar medicii veneau cu solu\u021bii pentru a putea s\u0103-i strecoare \u00een continuare salvarea \u00een celule. I-au montat un fel de camer\u0103 \u00een piept, prin care \u00eei administrau citostaticele f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 o mai \u00een\u021bepe de fiecare dat\u0103. Atunci a cedat. Nu mai \u0219tia dac\u0103 intensitatea durerii din mintea ei \u00eenc\u0103 venea din corp. Dac\u0103 la primirea diagnosticului mintea i s-a activat imediat pentru a face un plan de mers mai departe, acum \u0219i-a dat voie s\u0103 stea un pic \u00een momentul \u00een care se afla. A durut p\u00e2n\u0103 la lacrimi. Dar i-a \u0219i deschis noi zone de \u00een\u021belegere \u0219i percep\u021bie a corpului ei. Cel \u00een care tr\u0103ise at\u00e2\u021bia ani deja, dar de care r\u0103m\u0103sese par\u021bial str\u0103in\u0103. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>\u00cel sim\u021beam \u0219i pe el obosit. Am sim\u021bit o re\u00eentregire \u0219i conectare cu el.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Treptat, a \u00eenceput s\u0103 doar\u0103 mai pu\u021bin.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>Calmarea durerii fizice a fost ca un fel de confirmare c\u0103 toate se vor calma \u00een final.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Pe c\u00e2nd a ajuns la ultima \u0219edin\u021b\u0103 de chimio, nu prea mai putea m\u00e2nca. I se f\u0103cea r\u0103u de la mirosul de morcov fiert, nu avea voie s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce s\u0103rat, a vomitat de la o l\u0103m\u00e2ie.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen timpul celor \u0219ase \u0219edin\u021be s-a tuns la zero. Un apropiat i-a spus c\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd a v\u0103zut-o pe ea umbl\u00e2nd cheal\u0103, l-a f\u0103cut \u0219i pe el s\u0103 nu \u00eei mai fie ru\u0219ine s\u0103-\u0219i poarte ochelarii. Mul\u021bi oameni au ru\u0219inea bolii, spune Raluca. \u0218i-ar dori ca bolile \u0219i corpurile oamenilor s\u0103 nu mai fie tabu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen cele \u0219ase luni cu perioade petrecute \u00een spital a vrut s\u0103 se \u00eemprieteneasc\u0103 \u00eentr-un mod genuin cu universul acestei boli. A participat la organizarea unui eveniment caritabil, o sear\u0103 de tango, care a adus laolalt\u0103 mai mul\u021bi oameni diagnostica\u021bi cu cancer. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Aveam activitate, asta m-a \u021binut pe o linie de echilibru. M-a ajutat mult energia pozitiv\u0103 de acolo. M-a ajutat s\u0103 vorbesc cu al\u021bi oameni care trec prin acelea\u0219i lucruri.<\/span>\u201d<\/span> A\u0219a afli totul, doctorii nu \u00ee\u021bi spun chiar tot. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>De exemplu, c\u0103 te constipi. Dac\u0103 ceri ajutorul, afli.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Pentru Raluca, la finalul tratamentului nu a mai contat dac\u0103 diagnosticului i se spusese cancer sau limfom. Trecuse.<\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″][vc_column width=”1\/1″][vc_single_image media=”48075″ media_lightbox=”yes” media_width_percent=”100″ alignment=”center” lbox_caption=”yes” lbox_connected=”yes”][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]\u00cenainte de cancer, Raluca avea dou\u0103 joburi, ca s\u0103-\u0219i ia o cas\u0103. Acum se odihne\u0219te mai mult. A con\u0219tientizat c\u0103 orele de somn, prietenii, m\u00e2ncarea, tot ce \u00eei d\u0103 corpului influen\u021beaz\u0103 calitatea vie\u021bii. \u0218i are grij\u0103. Dac\u0103 la \u00eenceput f\u0103cea asta din frica de a nu p\u0103\u021bi ceva r\u0103u, acum spune c\u0103 o face din iubire pentru ea.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Raluca are azi un atelier, unde face art\u0103 textil\u0103.<\/span><\/p>\n

Experien\u021ba cu cancerul i se cite\u0219te \u0219i pe piele. Cel mai greu i-a fost s\u0103 fac\u0103 pace cu cicatricea din pieptul ei. Prima cicatrice, de la biopsie. Este dovada a tot ceea ce a tr\u0103it. C\u0103 a supravie\u021buit. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>A durat mult p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 pun m\u00e2na pe ea. P\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 trec cu degetul peste ea. Era dovada palpabil\u0103 a diagnosticului. Momentul \u00een care am atins-o a fost o acceptare mult mai profund\u0103 a cancerului.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Pentru Raluca, trauma e durerea \u0219i trece cu iubire. Cu fiecare \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219are din partea celor dragi. \u0218i cu terapie.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0218i cei dragi, care i-au fost mereu al\u0103turi, au tr\u0103it propriul proces. De dragul aparen\u021belor, toat\u0103 lumea era bine, dar au fost \u0219i momente \u00een care o auzea, \u00een garsonier\u0103, pe mama ei cum pl\u00e2nge pe ascuns \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie. Au ajuns la cap\u0103tul bolii \u00eempreun\u0103.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>Eram \u0219i \u00eenainte uni\u021bi, dar cred c\u0103 acum suntem mult mai con\u0219tien\u021bi c\u0103 lucrurile se pot termina oric\u00e2nd. De obicei, te g\u00e2nde\u0219ti c\u0103 p\u0103rin\u021bii sunt cei care se vor duce primii, dar poate fi \u0219i invers.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Experien\u021ba prin care a trecut a ajutat-o s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103 c\u0103 ziua de m\u00e2ine nu e garantat\u0103. S\u0103 fac\u0103 ce-\u0219i dore\u0219te \u00eenc\u0103 de azi. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Nicio boal\u0103 nu are v\u00e2rst\u0103. Nici moartea nu are v\u00e2rst\u0103. Poate fi oric\u00e2nd.<\/span>\u201d<\/span> Iar asta e re\u021beta pentru a tr\u0103i.<\/span><\/p>\n

A avut momente \u00een care s-a g\u00e2ndit c\u0103 dac\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 mai treac\u0103 prin asta \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103, nu ar mai spune familiei. S\u0103 nu mai sufere \u0219i ei. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>S\u0103 nu-\u021bi treac\u0103 prin cap s\u0103 faci asta. E dreptul meu de sor\u0103, s\u0103 nu-mi iei dreptul \u0103sta<\/span>\u201d<\/span>, i-a spus sora ei c\u00e2nd i-a m\u0103rturisit acest g\u00e2nd.<\/span><\/p>\n

Teama de recidiv\u0103 e ceva cu care a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103. A ie\u0219it din spital cu g\u00e2ndul c\u0103 durerea se poate \u00eentoarce oric\u00e2nd, dar cu fiecare control care \u00eei ar\u0103ta c\u0103 boala nu mai este aici, anxietatea s-a calmat. Ast\u0103zi se simte \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103.<\/p>\n

Se joac\u0103 cu p\u0103rul ei mai mult ca \u00eenainte, \u00eei place s\u0103 con\u0219tientizeze cum cre\u0219te \u0219i-l poate prinde \u00een coad\u0103. La \u00eenceput, a fost o experien\u021b\u0103 nea\u0219teptat\u0103. S-a trezit cu un p\u0103r cre\u021b, pe care nu \u0219tia cum s\u0103-l gestioneze. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Eram ca o oaie. Se mai \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 \u0219i schimb\u0103ri de look \u00een cancer.<\/span>\u201d <\/span>Pentru ea, s\u0103 poat\u0103 s\u0103-\u0219i prind\u0103 p\u0103rul \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 totul e \u00een regul\u0103. P\u0103rul lung e martorul c\u0103 timpul trece. \u0218i ea r\u0103m\u00e2ne bine.\u00a0<\/span>
\n\u201e<\/span>P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103, corpul e casa noastr\u0103. Deci banii str\u00e2n\u0219i s-au dus pe o cas\u0103.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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Articol ap\u0103rut \u00een revista DoR#44<\/a><\/p>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-gyho” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][vc_column_text]\u201cFragmente\u201d \u00eembin\u0103 fotografia, colajul\u00a0\u0219i\u00a0interviul pentru a documenta pove\u0219tile personale ale unor oameni care au trecut prin experien\u021be traumatice.<\/p>\n

\u00cen proiect, persoanele intervievate \u0219i fotografiate realizeaz\u0103 un colaj\u00a0\u00een care\u00a0\u00ee\u0219i\u00a0schi\u021beaz\u0103 vizual\u00a0identitatea reconstruit\u0103 dup\u0103 traum\u0103.<\/p>\n

concept \u0219i realizare de Andrada L\u0103utaru \/ Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/p>\n

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