{"id":48108,"date":"2021-10-04T12:20:38","date_gmt":"2021-10-04T12:20:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/?p=48108"},"modified":"2022-01-10T16:03:06","modified_gmt":"2022-01-10T16:03:06","slug":"fragmente-alex","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.documentaria.ro\/content\/archives\/48108","title":{"rendered":"Trauma r\u0103m\u00e2ne mult mai mult \u00een corp dec\u00e2t pe corp"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201eTrauma r\u0103m\u00e2ne mult mai mult \u00een corp dec\u00e2t pe corp<\/b>\u201d<\/b><\/h2>\n

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colaj:\u00a0Alex B\u0103l\u0103
\ntext: Andrada L\u0103utaru
\nfotografii: Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/h6>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][uncode_share layout=”multiple” no_back=”yes” title=”SHARE”][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_column_text]\u201eA, ce interesant!\u201d, \u201eCe sexy!\u201d \u201ePot s\u0103 o ating?\u201d, \u201eOare a fost la Colectiv? Pare o arsur\u0103.\u201d, \u201eAoleu, Doamne!\u201d, \u201eM\u00e2na asta e varz\u0103, nu mai po\u021bi s\u0103 faci nimic cu ea!\u201d, \u201eEu credeam c\u0103 te-a atacat un urs\u201d, \u201eS\u0103 nu ie\u0219i \u00een maieu, c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi vede lumea <\/span>asta<\/span><\/i>\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201eLa \u00eenceput, eu nu puteam s\u0103 m\u0103 uit la m\u00e2n\u0103, \u0219i c\u00e2nd m\u0103 uitam, ziceam c\u0103 nu e a mea.\u201d C\u00e2nd Alex B\u0103l\u0103, un muzician de 35 de ani, a \u00eenceput s\u0103 ias\u0103 pe strad\u0103 \u00een tricou, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-\u0219i mai ascund\u0103 cicatricele, a devenit vizibil chiar \u0219i pentru necunoscu\u021bi. Unele persoane erau fascinate. Dar mai erau \u0219i priviri \u00een care citea un \u201ebine c\u0103 nu mi s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat mie.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Totul a \u00eenceput c\u00e2nd s-a urcat \u00een ma\u0219ina unei \u0219oferi\u021be care i-a spus c\u0103 e pu\u021bin vitezoman\u0103. \u201eEu sunt anxios\u201d, i-a r\u0103spuns Alex, care pe atunci, \u00een vara lui 2014, tocmai \u00ee\u0219i lansase un album \u0219i se preg\u0103tea s\u0103-\u0219i umple vara cu concerte.<\/p>\n

Erau trei pasageri, tineri care se \u00eentorceau acas\u0103 de la un festival de film de l\u00e2ng\u0103 Sibiu. El s-a a\u0219ezat \u00een spate, cu m\u00e2na dreapt\u0103 sprijinit\u0103 pe marginea ma\u0219inii decapotabile, care avea plafonul cobor\u00e2t. \u00centr-o decapotabil\u0103, e locul \u00een care exteriorul \u0219i interiorul devin unul \u0219i acela\u0219i lucru.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>\u021ain minte cum era senza\u021bia aia, de mers prima dat\u0103 cu o ma\u0219in\u0103 decapotabil\u0103. Mam\u0103, merg cu ma\u0219ina decapotabil\u0103, se simte soarele, v\u00e2ntul\u2026 Apoi m-am g\u00e2ndit ce <\/span>unsafe<\/span><\/i> e!<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen c\u00e2teva momente, fata de la volan a pierdut controlul. \u201eNu a fost ca \u00een filme; ne-am rostogolit doar o dat\u0103\u201d. M\u00e2na lui dreapt\u0103, care abia se jucase cu aerul aruncat cu vitez\u0103 printre degete, a fost prins\u0103 \u00een violen\u021ba accidentului. C\u00e2nd zguduirea s-a terminat, ceilal\u021bi pasageri erau bine, dar el \u00ee\u0219i \u021binea m\u00e2na \u00een bra\u021be pentru c\u0103 \u201esim\u021beam c\u0103 o s\u0103 cad\u0103. Era halucinant. M-am \u00eentins pe spate l\u00e2ng\u0103 carosabil\u201d. S\u00e2ngera. <\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row unlock_row_content=”yes” row_height_percent=”100″ back_image=”48078″ back_attachment=”fixed” back_position=”center center” overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”25″ position_vertical=”middle” align_horizontal=”align_center” override_padding=”yes” column_padding=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”5″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]Locul accidentului: kilometrul 7. \u00centr-un c\u00e2mp <\/span>destul de frumos<\/span><\/i>, l\u00e2ng\u0103 doi copaci. A\u0219a a a\u0219teptat salvarea care a venit \u00een c\u00e2teva minute. Cu panic\u0103 \u0219i adrenalin\u0103 \u00een voce l-a \u00eentrebat pe paramedic ce crede:<\/span> \u00ee\u0219i va pierde m\u00e2na? \u00eei va fi amputat\u0103?\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Restul amintirilor sunt \u00eence\u021bo\u0219ate. S-a trezit pacient, cu m\u00e2na rupt\u0103, \u00eentr-un univers al imobiliz\u0103rii par\u021biale. Au urmat dou\u0103 luni de spitalizare, \u00een care a \u00eencercat s\u0103-\u0219i \u00eenfr\u00e2neze temerile prin scenarii pozitive. O s\u0103 se recupereze. O s\u0103-\u0219i recapete dexteritatea. O s\u0103 fac\u0103 muzic\u0103. E norocos. Are o \u00eentreag\u0103 re\u021bea de suport: medici, prieteni \u0219i familie.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dar uneori frica se strecura fin, ca lichidul \u00een perfuzie. Se uita la m\u00e2na lui \u0219i se \u00eentreba dac\u0103 va mai putea s\u0103 bat\u0103 cu ea tobele sau s\u0103 ias\u0103 muzic\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd atinge ni\u0219te clape. \u201eNu puteam face nimic cu ea. Era inert\u0103 \u0219i bleag\u0103. Bicepsul ie\u0219ise pe afar\u0103, ce a mai r\u0103mas trebuia cusut.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Pentru el, experien\u021ba din spital a fost una brutal\u0103, care l-a confruntat cu realitatea durerii propriului corp, dar \u0219i a pacien\u021bilor cu care a \u00eemp\u0103r\u021bit salonul. \u201eAutomat se creeaz\u0103 \u00een capul t\u0103u o ierarhie despre c\u00e2t de norocos e\u0219ti, prin compara\u021bie.\u201d \u00cen spital a legat multe conexiuni, transferate de la un pat la altul prin pove\u0219ti \u201etragice, <\/span>funny<\/span><\/i> \u0219i absurde\u201d. El era printre cei privilegia\u021bi, putea s\u0103 se duc\u0103 pe picioarele lui la baie, spre deosebire de cei care avea fracturate oase la picioare. Cu to\u021bii erau marca\u021bi. La propriu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cen timp ce cicatricea \u00ee\u0219i schimba culoarea \u0219i textura, Alex \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba lec\u021bia fragilit\u0103\u021bii \u0219i a accept\u0103rii. \u201eAm trecut prin ceva, \u00een\u021belegeam ceva. \u00cen general, raportarea oamenilor la corpurile din jur \u0219i la propriul corp e \u00eenc\u0103rcat\u0103 de judecat\u0103. E o zon\u0103 greu de negociat.\u201d<\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″][vc_column width=”1\/1″][vc_single_image media=”48074″ media_lightbox=”yes” media_width_percent=”100″ alignment=”center” lbox_caption=”yes” lbox_connected=”yes”][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]Negocierea lui s-a dat cu mobilitatea. La \u00eenceput nu putea s\u0103 \u00eendrepte m\u00e2na din cot. Apoi nu putea s\u0103 prind\u0103 sau s\u0103 ridice obiecte. Recuperarea dexterit\u0103\u021bii a fost cea mai grea parte din proces. Lentoarea a fost ap\u0103s\u0103toare, fiind nevoie de zile \u00eentregi, chiar s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, ca s\u0103 \u00eenceap\u0103 s\u0103 simt\u0103 din nou. \u201eNu sim\u021beam mare rahat de la o zi la alta, dar de la o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 la alta mai sim\u021beam.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Timp de \u0219ase-\u0219apte luni \u0219i-a folosit doar m\u00e2na st\u00e2ng\u0103. \u0218i acum o folose\u0219te mai des.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Reconstruc\u021bia unei rela\u021bii OK<\/span> cu m\u00e2na lui dreapt\u0103 a durat. \u201eEu o judecam la \u00eenceput. M\u0103 uitam la pozele dinainte – uite ce bine ar\u0103tam!\u201d Acum p\u0103rea c\u0103 are o \u201eparte <\/span>alien<\/span><\/i>, catapultat\u0103 de altundeva\u201d. S\u0103 fac\u0103 pace cu toate p\u0103r\u021bile din el n-a fost un proces liniar. Nici fa\u021b\u0103 de el \u00eensu\u0219i, nici c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u0219i \u00eemp\u0103r\u021bea corpul cu un alt corp. \u201eNu e horror?\u201d, \u00eentreba uneori \u00een intimitate. Nu era.<\/span><\/p>\n

La un an dup\u0103 accident, a avut primul concert. Scena, el din nou \u00eentr-o rela\u021bie cu instrumentele, a fost altarul recuper\u0103rii. \u201eNu e 100%, dar e <\/span>good enough<\/span><\/i>. Pot s\u0103 c\u00e2nt.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Dac\u0103 ar fi vorba de altcineva, se g\u00e2nde\u0219te, nu s-ar sc\u00e2rbi de cicatrice, de ce ale lui \u00eei fac r\u0103u? \u201eNu trebuie s\u0103 le ador, ci s\u0103 le accept.\u201d Au \u00eenceput s\u0103 apar\u0103 \u0219i momente duioase, c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u0219i m\u00e2ng\u00e2ie m\u00e2na. \u0218i cele \u00een care uit\u0103 de semnele de pe ea p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u00eei amintesc oglinzile prin fa\u021ba c\u0103rora trece.<\/p>\n

\u201eReac\u021bia mai<\/span> dark<\/span><\/i> o am cu accidentul \u0219i cu viteza.\u201d Cu golul din stomac sim\u021bit \u00een momentul \u00een care n-a mai avut niciun control. E o senza\u021bie pe care o retr\u0103ie\u0219te de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd e \u00eentr-un avion, la decolare \u0219i la aterizare. De fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd merge cu ma\u0219ina. Iarna, c\u00e2nd se g\u00e2nde\u0219te s\u0103 nu alunece \u0219i s\u0103 cad\u0103 pe m\u00e2n\u0103. C\u00e2nd se g\u00e2nde\u0219te la b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021be \u0219i cum \u00eei vor fi oasele atunci. Dar toate golurile din stomac au devenit refrenul existen\u021bei\/vie\u021bii lui.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Articol ap\u0103rut \u00een revista DoR#44<\/a><\/p>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-gyho” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][vc_column_text]\u201cFragmente\u201d \u00eembin\u0103 fotografia, colajul\u00a0\u0219i\u00a0interviul pentru a documenta pove\u0219tile personale ale unor oameni care au trecut prin experien\u021be traumatice.<\/p>\n

\u00cen proiect, persoanele intervievate \u0219i fotografiate realizeaz\u0103 un colaj\u00a0\u00een care\u00a0\u00ee\u0219i\u00a0schi\u021beaz\u0103 vizual\u00a0identitatea reconstruit\u0103 dup\u0103 traum\u0103.<\/p>\n

concept \u0219i realizare de Andrada L\u0103utaru \/ Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/p>\n

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