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FRAGMENTE:
\nERIKA<\/h1>\n

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\u201e<\/b>Eu nu sunt bolnav\u0103, eu nu pot s\u0103 merg<\/b>\u201d<\/b><\/h2>\n

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colaj: Erika Garnier
\ntext: Andrada L\u0103utaru
\nfotografii: Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/h6>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][uncode_share layout=”multiple” no_back=”yes” title=”SHARE”][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_column_text]\u201eMam\u0103, mie \u00eemi e foame, cum s\u0103 mor? \u00ce\u021bi zic eu sigur c\u0103 nu mor.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Erika Garnier avea 21 de ani c\u00e2nd durerea pe care o sim\u021bea la mijloc \u201es-a l\u0103sat pe picioare\u201d.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

A ajuns la spital, \u00een ianuarie 2010, cu <\/span>picioarele amor\u021bite, ca \u0219i cum ar fi \u00een\u021bepat-o multe albine.<\/span><\/p>\n

Era student\u0103 \u00een anul al III-lea la Facultatea de Comunicare \u0219i Rela\u021bii Publice, iar majoritatea timpului \u00eel petrecea pe drumuri. Alerga mult dup\u0103 trenurile \u0219i autobuzele\u00a0 care legau casa ei din Ploie\u0219ti de facultatea din Bucure\u0219ti. \u00cen orele petrecute \u00een mijloace de transport \u00eei pl\u0103cea s\u0103 observe oamenii \u0219i interac\u021biunile dintre ei.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Ajuns\u0103 la spital, toat\u0103 lumea o \u00eentreba dac\u0103 a avut un accident la handbal. T\u0103lpile pe care abia \u0219i le \u00eenghesuise \u00eentr-o pereche de adida\u0219i p\u0103reau c\u0103 dep\u0103\u0219esc lungimea t\u0103rgii. O doctori\u021b\u0103 a criticat-o c\u0103 umbl\u0103 iarna \u00eenc\u0103l\u021bat\u0103 \u00een adida\u0219i. Sigur n-a avut grij\u0103 de ea.\u00a0<\/i><\/p>\n

\u201eNu \u0219tiu c\u00e2nd s\u0103 plasez \u00een timp primul simptom.\u201d \u0218i acum se \u00eentreab\u0103 care era o durere de mijloc obi\u0219nuit\u0103 \u0219i care era de la tumoarea pe care a descoperit c\u0103 o are la nivelul m\u0103duvei spin\u0103rii.<\/p>\n

A ajuns \u00eentr-un salon de spital, printre oameni imobiliza\u021bi. Realitatea ei ar\u0103ta la fel oriunde privea. \u201eSt\u00e2nga \u2013 nu mi\u0219ca nimeni. Dreapta \u2013 nu mi\u0219ca nimeni.\u201d<\/p>\n

S-a obi\u0219nuit cu situa\u021bia \u0219i propria nemi\u0219care, pentru c\u0103 \u0219i-a spus c\u0103 e trec\u0103toare. Dup\u0103 aproximativ trei s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, mergea \u00een baston \u0219i \u00eencepuse recuperarea. Lucrurile ar\u0103tau mai bine. \u201eM-am ridicat. Ce a fost mai greu a trecut. Merg.\u201d<\/p>\n

A plecat acas\u0103 sprijinit\u0103 \u00een baston, cu un set de exerci\u021bii de kinetoterapie. A f\u0103cut mult mai multe. \u201eEram disperat\u0103. Voiam s\u0103 fiu ca \u00eenainte.\u201d<\/p>\n

Se \u021binea de recuperare, cre\u0219tea doza de medicamente, dar durerea cre\u0219tea \u0219i ea. Putea merge din ce \u00een ce mai greu. La sal\u0103, d\u0103dea cu pumnii \u00een spalier, p\u00e2n\u0103 la s\u00e2nge.<\/p>\n

A ajuns din nou \u00een spital, iar dup\u0103 un RMN, a aflat c\u0103 o opera\u021bie e iminent\u0103.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd a ie\u0219it din opera\u021bie, a \u00eentrebat c\u00e2t e ceasul. \u201eDe parc\u0103 m\u0103 gr\u0103beam undeva.\u201d<\/p>\n

Trecuser\u0103 7 ore.<\/p>\n

\u201eAtunci c\u00e2nd m-a deschis, ce a v\u0103zut acolo nu era ce v\u0103zuse pe RMN. Aveam ceva ca ni\u0219te fire de cabluri vechi \u00eenc\u00e2lcite cu cabluri noi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Era o forma\u021biune malign\u0103. \u201eEu at\u00e2t am \u00een\u021beles: am cancer \u0219i o s\u0103 mor.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>Nu cred c\u0103 vedeam mult mai departe de realitatea asta a mea. Nu aveam niciun scenariu de rezerv\u0103 pentru viitorul meu. P\u0103rea foarte previzibil. M\u0103 vedeam o femeie de succes. Eventual \u0219i familist\u0103.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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A \u00eenceput tratamentul prin radioterapie. I-au desenat, pe stern, un punct prin care trebuiau s\u0103 direc\u021bioneze razele. A\u0219a s-a trezit cu un tatuaj nedorit. \u00cen jurul ei, to\u021bi erau marca\u021bi. Pe g\u00e2t, pe ceaf\u0103. Majoritatea la vedere.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Nu putea s\u0103-\u0219i ridice m\u00e2inile s\u0103 se pieptene, nu putea ajunge la toalet\u0103, trebuia s\u0103 fie \u00eentoars\u0103 de pe-o parte pe cealalt\u0103 cu cear\u0219aful, i se d\u0103dea s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce cu linguri\u021ba. \u201eNu nimereau mereu gura.\u201d Mama i-a devenit tot ce nu putea face singur\u0103. Era furioas\u0103.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201eNu te mi\u0219ti, nu te mi\u0219ti, dar eu nu \u00eemi d\u0103dusem seama ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 treaba asta. Poate c\u0103 e mai bine c\u0103 nu am \u0219tiut toate elementele astea \u0219i le-am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat pe r\u00e2nd.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Nu-\u0219i mai sim\u021bea picioarele aproape deloc. Trebuia s\u0103 se uite pe sub cear\u0219af s\u0103 \u0219tie dac\u0103 sunt \u00eembr\u0103cate sau dezbr\u0103cate.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00ce\u0219i permitea dou\u0103 op\u021biuni: s\u0103 stea \u00een pat cu capul spre fereastr\u0103 sau cu el spre u\u0219\u0103.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201eNu aveam libertate. Doar ce citeam puteam s\u0103 aleg eu.\u201d A \u00eenceput cu c\u0103r\u021bile lui Milan Kundera.<\/span><\/p>\n

La marginea patului, c\u00e2nd trebuia s\u0103 fie mutat\u0103, cei care f\u0103ceau asta purtau o discu\u021bie mecanic\u0103. Se sim\u021bea ca un obiect care trebuia luat \u0219i dus \u00een alt\u0103 parte.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Facultatea era singurul lucru pe care p\u0103rea c\u0103 mai \u0219tie cum s\u0103-l fac\u0103. Avea o via\u021b\u0103 de tr\u0103it. Voia s\u0103 se lege de ceva care nu se transferase \u00een patul de spital.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201eCancer, cancer, nu merg, nu merg, dar eu trebuie s\u0103 dau licen\u021ba. Ceva trebuie s\u0103 continue.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0218i-a \u00eenghe\u021bat anul. \u0218tiin\u021ba se \u00eembinase cu credin\u021ba la capul patului ei \u0219i starea de pacient\u0103 nu avea termen de expirare. \u201eToat\u0103 lumea spunea la spital c\u0103 s-a f\u0103cut tot ce s-a putut. Acum \u021binea de Dumnezeu. Nu mai puteam s\u0103 aud asta. M\u0103 terminau psihic astea motiva\u021bionale. Eu trebuia s\u0103 \u0219tiu ceva concret. Cauz\u0103-efect. De ce am eu forma\u021biunea asta?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Nu a primit niciun r\u0103spuns. Nu exist\u0103 unul. \u201eNu e pe num\u0103rate, nu e vina nim\u0103nui, nu a\u0219a se \u00eempart lucrurile\u201d, a concluzionat mai t\u00e2rziu \u0219i a acceptat c\u0103 nu mai poate merge.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Dac\u0103 \u00eenaintea opera\u021biei primise 80% \u0219anse de recuperare \u0219i 20% \u0219anse s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 cu un mic defect de mers, acum glume\u0219te. \u201eAcest scaun rulant e un mic defect de mers.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd a ie\u0219it din spital, \u00een august 2010, i s-a p\u0103rut c\u0103 cerul avea alt\u0103 culoare.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cenapoi acas\u0103, a descoperit o cas\u0103 neaccesibilizat\u0103 nevoilor ei. Sc\u0103ri, mobil\u0103 prea \u00eenalt\u0103, obstacole peste tot.<\/span> \u201eTrebuie s\u0103 accesibilizezi, altfel e nevoie mereu de cineva care s\u0103 te ajute. Te ajut\u0103 s\u0103 ba\u021bi pasul pe loc.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd a \u00eenceput s\u0103 ias\u0103 din cas\u0103, s-a lovit de tot ce se temea: oameni necunoscu\u021bi care o \u00eentrebau ce a p\u0103\u021bit, oameni care i-au oferit c\u0103r\u021bi de vizit\u0103 ale unor terapeu\u021bi, mil\u0103, oameni care au vrut s\u0103-i ofere bani. <\/span>[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″][vc_column width=”1\/1″][vc_single_image media=”48077″ media_lightbox=”yes” media_width_percent=”100″ alignment=”center” lbox_caption=”yes” lbox_connected=”yes”][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-xsdn” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”3″][vc_column_text]\u201e<\/span>Cred c\u0103 \u021bine cumva \u0219i de cum e\u0219ti ca fire, dar \u0219i de timpul la care prime\u0219ti astfel de \u00eentreb\u0103ri. Dac\u0103 primeam \u00een prima, a doua lun\u0103 dup\u0103 ce nu mai puteam s\u0103 merg cred c\u0103 m-ar fi enervat, \u00eentristat, deprimat.<\/span>\u201d<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

A venit la Funda\u021bia Motivation, ca voluntar\u0103, la finalul lui 2010, s\u0103 afle cum s\u0103 fie independent\u0103 \u00eentr-un fotoliu rulant. A \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 se \u00eembrace mai u\u0219or singur\u0103, cum s\u0103 aib\u0103 o pozi\u021bie corect\u0103 \u00een scaun, s\u0103 danseze. A \u00eenceput pe Goran Bregovi\u0107.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201e<\/span>Eu nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc altfel dec\u00e2t s\u0103 merg, s\u0103 urc dealuri. Nu voiam s\u0103 fiu asociat\u0103 cu categoria asta. Am suferit foarte mult c\u00e2nd mi-au eliberat certificatul de handicap.<\/span>\u201d<\/span> A realizat apoi c\u0103 nu voia s\u0103 fie asociat\u0103 cu o categorie despre care nu \u0219tia de fapt nimic.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Furia \u00eenc\u0103 exist\u0103 \u00een interiorul ei, dar \u00eencearc\u0103 s-o canalizeze spre schimb\u0103rile la care poate contribui. \u0218i-a dorit asta din copil\u0103rie, pe c\u00e2nd era fan Xena, Prin\u021besa R\u0103zboinic\u0103. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>Voiam s\u0103 fiu o justi\u021biar\u0103.<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ast\u0103zi este angajat\u0103 la Motivation, pe partea de comunicare, merge la lucru cu ma\u0219ina ei \u0219i m\u0103soar\u0103 succesul \u00een umanitate. <\/span>\u201e<\/span>C\u00e2t la sut\u0103 dintr-un om e faptul c\u0103 se deplaseaz\u0103 \u00een scaun?<\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Articol ap\u0103rut \u00een revista DoR#44<\/a><\/p>\n

[\/vc_column_text][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row row_height_percent=”0″ override_padding=”yes” h_padding=”2″ top_padding=”0″ bottom_padding=”5″ overlay_color=”color-gyho” overlay_alpha=”90″ gutter_size=”3″ shift_y=”0″ row_name=”TEXT”][vc_column column_width_percent=”65″ overlay_alpha=”50″ gutter_size=”3″ medium_width=”0″ shift_x=”0″ shift_y=”0″ z_index=”0″ width=”1\/1″][vc_empty_space empty_h=”2″][vc_column_text]\u201cFragmente\u201d \u00eembin\u0103 fotografia, colajul\u00a0\u0219i\u00a0interviul pentru a documenta pove\u0219tile personale ale unor oameni care au trecut prin experien\u021be traumatice.<\/p>\n

\u00cen proiect, persoanele intervievate \u0219i fotografiate realizeaz\u0103 un colaj\u00a0\u00een care\u00a0\u00ee\u0219i\u00a0schi\u021beaz\u0103 vizual\u00a0identitatea reconstruit\u0103 dup\u0103 traum\u0103.<\/p>\n

concept \u0219i realizare de Andrada L\u0103utaru \/ Bogdan Dinc\u0103<\/p>\n

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